pancreatic cancer

  • year lego truck
    blogging,  Children,  pancreatic cancer

    My blogging year 2022

    Here we are at the end of 2022, how has your year been?

    As far as my blog year goes, I’ve been unproductive, but my life has been productive with little time for my blog.  I hoped to read 45 books this year, my Good reads account is at 38, so that’s not good either.  So, what have I been up to?

    January 2022

    This year I set myself a reading marathon, trying to raise money for Pancreatic Cancer UK.  I read all the Jack Reacher books at speed.  I would not advise this to anyone as I can barely remember the books and it was exhausting! Plus, people don’t appear to donate money to reading marathons.  Here is why PCUK –(loss of my dad).

    After walking about 36 miles in one go in 2021 I’m struggling to find a challenge to top it.  I wrote 30 stories in 30 days in November 2021 – hard work but not a fundraising success.  (30 stories in 30 days)

    Any good fundraising ideas?  I can’t run far and I’m not jumping out of a plane, so I’m stuck here. We walked over 1000 miles in 2021 and have done it again in 2022.  (My 2022 fundraising page)

    This year my daughter and I helped raise awareness by wearing our pyjamas around town and then posted it on the Facebook local resident’s page.  We had been noticed by a lot of people and received many positive comments of support. Yes I am wearing my Oodie.

    year me in pjs

    Also, in January 2022

    We found out that our nine-year-old was eighteen months behind at school.  This was why she was crying through every maths lesson and then banging her head into the table.  Lots of tears and angst. Thankfully my sister is a primary school teacher, so from about February onwards she has been tutoring her once a week.  My daughter now at December 2022 is in the top English group at school and is doing year 5 maths, no longer year 2 that she was doing in January.  She is a lot happier and proud of her efforts, a productive year for her!

    March 2022

    I realised that I needed to chase up her referral for ADHD, and with help she was finally diagnosed in May 2022.  Her medication, extra tutoring, teachers, and hard work and determination have all contributed to where she is today.  She has come a long way!

    July 2022

    My eleven-year-old finished primary school this year.  Lots of emotions about leaving, a leavers ball and a leavers assembly.  Friends that he has parted from and then friends who we didn’t think he would still be friends with who, through the wonders of modern technology are still talking frequently.  When I left school, we said goodbye and its only through Facebook that I see their faces and their news.   Too many years have gone by to send a messenger message out of the blue, some of them would not recognise me in the street or say hello.

    September 2022

    My son started Secondary school and that has meant a lot more homework.   I’m that mum who is working and monitoring the homework workload to ensure it is all completed.  That might sound mad, but I’m also the mum who wishes she had worked harder at school.  I would be working a very different job now.  The homework I missed and the lessons that I daydreamed through all led to today.  So, if I can help my children make better decisions and understand and do their school work well, I will.

    Both children are working extremely hard at school, but like a lot of nine- and eleven-year-olds they hate homework.  Social media is not helping there, the homework gets completed as soon as possible rather then maximum effort, and yes, I really need to step back and not worry.

    December 2022

    My son enjoys building Lego, current favourites are Lego Architecture and big Lego Technic, featured picture was his Christmas present, started yesterday and finished today.  I’ve realised that he not only needs to work hard at school, but he also needs to one day have a house with a spare room to accommodate all of it.  His collection is rapidly growing.

    As of yesterday I have walked about 1020 miles this year and my children have walked too.

    My writing

    This year I have been too busy and too tired to write.  Reading became a challenge as I kept falling asleep in my comfortable chair every night.  I then moved into the kitchen but I still fought to stay awake.

    I’ve seen writing challenges in my inbox and thought I need to do something.  I’ve had ideas while going about my workday.  Getting out the laptop and writing was something that prior November 2020 I just did. Afterwards my world fell apart, then life got busier with the children needing more of my time. (my plans for 2022)

    My novel still sits here on my lap top.  Draft one that needs a complete rewrite.  Can I get back into this?  I really hope I can.

    2023 is just a week away, a whole new year!  A new year to get back into writing and to make new memories with our families!

    Hope you have all had a good Christmas, and best wishes for a happy and positive 2023!

     

    My 2022 fundraising page again

  • reading books
    Family,  pancreatic cancer,  writing

    Reading and new plans for 2022

    A difficult year

     

    2021 is over, 2022 has now begun.   New resolutions, new hopes and new reading plans.  Do you set resolutions? I personally do not.  It would be nice to believe that 2022 will be a happier year.  Surely it will be better then last.  Worries over the rising energy price in the UK. Then calls for facemasks in secondary schools, rumours about primary schools. Talk now of not needing a PCR test following a positive LFT test.  Different rules between England, Scotland and Wales. Does the news get any better? I never thought I would want to be injected, I’m scared of needles but I don’t want Covid.

    Sat here now I’m sniffing, coughing and have a headache but LFT is negative.  The last time a lot of us did tests like these we were willing for 2 pink lines.  Weeing on a stick is a better experience then regularly putting a stick to the back of your throat and up your nostrils, I hate it. The latest is for daily LFT tests, I guess we all do what we can, but I don’t like the idea.

    My blogs

    2021 was a very quiet year for both my blogs, following losing dad, fundraising and walking took over.   My dad loved walking so when walking I feel closer to him.  I have wondered if he is with me, especially last year when I did 32 miles and got lost. Walking through the woods at night using my phone as a torch was a scary experience.

    2021 was thirty stories in thirty days a challenge for a different story every night.  Trying to think of a new story and writing it, I’ve always been a pantser, I had no time to plan them.

    So, 2022, what now?

    I’m hoping for a better blog year.  I still want to fundraise so have tried to think of something different this year.  Last year I walked over 1000 miles, this year I would like to do that again, but needed a new challenge.

    Reading

    I’ve been planning on reading the Lee Child, Jack Reacher books for a while, I found one in my Goodreads account tonight from 2018 unread.  Realising that a Marathon is 26.2 miles and there are now 26 books in the series I thought of doing a reading Marathon for Pancreatic Cancer UK.  I am also reading to the children every night and I have also found a book of Jack Reacher short stories. So, my Marathon will be over 26 books. I had set a goal of the end of May, I am now on book six, since 13th December 2021, so hoping this is realistic.

    The children are still walking, though as they get older, I am having more regular arguments about computer games.  Getting out in the countryside is always good, they both relax, and we usually have a good time.  Cries of I’m tired and my legs hurt are eased with biscuits, chocolate and squash / water.  Time outside is always good, its just motivating ourselves to get out.

    My novel

    I last looked at my novel in 2020. After losing dad I lost a lot of faith in my writing.  The distractions of life, fundraising and Netflix took over.   I know I need to go back over it, only I can bring my story to life, but it is a daunting prospect.  It sits at about 70 000 words and needs rewriting.   I set up Marianwood.com to focus on my writing, I know I need to get back to it.  My Jack Reacher Marathon is not going to help that though.

    Life is busy and there is so much that I would love to achieve.  However, my priorities as always are to my family.  The children are growing up and my ten-year-old changes school this year.  New prospects, new plans and new challenges.

    December 2022

    I would love at Christmas to be able to say that I’ve completed my novel.  To have read the forty five books that I’ve said I would read on Good Reads.  In recent years I’ve struggled to read twenty.   To have walked over 1000 miles again, plus work and life etc, yes, I’m possibly expecting too much.

    So, what are your plans for 2022? Are you planning to be busy? or hoping for a quiet one?

     

    My new fundraising page

    Links to Pancreatic Cancer UK – A story a day in November

    Please note last years fundraising page on the November stories, will still accept donations

    A story a day for Pancreatic Cancer UK

  • Professor's
    Fiction writing,  pancreatic cancer

    The Professor’s and the parallel timelines

    Written for Pancreatic Cancer UK to fundraise and help raise awareness of this terrible illness after losing my dad in November 2020

    Part 5

    The Professor’s

    We have been time jumping for over a week now and had met fifteen different Professor Jeffries.  Each one working on their own research and just two who became scared and dubious of our arrival.  If we had stepped outside together, we would have looked a strange bunch.  Two women and now five identical professor’s.  All fifteen had wanted to cure major diseases, and all had researched the lightning and hurricanes.  Some had heard of Hurricane Hannah, some Ruth and others Josie. Between the timelines, there are so many differences.  Thank fully, so far, in all timelines they accept British pounds sterling, so we can buy food.  We have slept at the university, not very comfortable but it’s warm and dry.

    Starting to give up hope of finding answers, maybe no one in any timeline had found a treatment for these devastating diseases. Even if we did find it, I’m not sure how we would get back to our Kirsty and Abigail.

    Watching the five professor’s travelling with us, they were a strange bunch.  Highly educated, laughing and discussing hurricanes and lightning.  We were going against known reality, a small army of unknown superheroes. The media would love us if they knew what we are doing.

     

    Thoughts

    Looking at Georgie, I can see she is thinking the same as ne.  She is yawning with her back against the warm red radiator. Will we find a cure? and how will we know when we are back in our correct timeline?

    “So, Professor’s, what is the plan? Do we continue time hopping? Any ideas here?

    “Somewhere in these timelines must be a professor who has worked this out, or a scientist who has created a cure.  Also, there must be one who can somehow get the information to all times”.

    “But, we are all working on this, and so far no answers.  Plus I try and talk to the scientist’s and get told I’m mad”.

    “So, do I.”

    “I think across the timelines we are all considered a bit mad, which is good, means they leave us alone to focus on our work”.

    “I think Kerry, we continue on our quest, one of us should also have worked out how to get home”.

     

    Standing up, I realise that we are getting nowhere just sitting here.

    “Come on, let’s go then, this world Professor are you coming?”

    “Sorry, I can’t, I have a family depending on me.”

    The other four stared at him.  All single men, they had been so busy with their research and careers that they hadn’t stopped for a wife and family.  Here was the choice that they wish they had taken but hadn’t.

    Another jump

    Holding hands, we shouted goodbye to this worlds professor and Georgie started the lightning ball.  As the room changed around us, we became aware of a new presence and then four men shouting dad and then, Grandma. This was an unexpected new development. Squeezing Georgie’s hand, surely this was a good sign.

    As the men hugged their dad, Georgie and I looked at the frail woman. If the Professors are in their sixties, then dad must be in his eighties and Grandma in her hundreds.

    Our professor noticed our stunned faces.

    “Dad died from Cancer, and Mum, Dementia in our times”.

    This world Professor now spoke. “Here there is early diagnosis, medication and much higher chance of recovery.  How did you get here?”

    “Recreated Lightning, did you experience Hurricane Hannah?”

    “Yes, we did, why? What’s happening?”

    I explained our story and our quest, the fact that all the doppelgangers needed to be returned back to their right timelines, and the cure for these terrible diseases shared.

    The elderly man now spoke, “they took my cancer away and they brought mum back”. There are six professors here and a teacher. We can work this out surely.”

    “I’m a teacher too”, I said.

    Now the elderly lady spoke, “from what you have told us, you have done something which Kenneth has committed his life too. He has been researching the lightning with hurricanes and had an interest in the theory of different decisions leading to different timelines.  For the two to be related, that is book worthy for all professors in all timelines. Now we need to work out how to disseminate the treatment and best practice on all diseases in all timelines.  Here, there is no cancer, unless someone from a different timeline accidentally brings it in.”

    “The Professor banged the table, making us all jump.

    “I had a phone call earlier from the hospital, a doctor has diagnosed stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer, I said, Impossible.” He picked up his phone, as the hospital answered, he passed on the bad news to check the patient again as the doctor might be right.

     

    Better in all worlds

    It took a week for the Professor’s and family to work it out between them.  Creating another form of lightning, a large Hurricane storm, now named Hurricane Tracy in our timeline.  As we all stood in the Cambridge University office with all the information that we needed, it was uploaded to the internet and somehow fed across all the parallel timelines.  As the storm started I took a last look at everyone around me, this was it, I was going home and would never see my doppelganger friends again.

     

    A week later

    Staring at the ceiling, the last few months were a blur. I had taken a rest from school, thankfully they were understanding.  My doppelganger stand in had not been too focused on the children for months.  They had decided that I need a break and that I’m not well, sadly they might be right.  However, I did need a break.  The repercussions of our traveling were immense. The information that we had shared through the timelines meant that someone very special was still with me, my dad.  I had not expected this result and I now needed to cherish him.

    It had been a brave experience to travel but having dad was certainly the best reward I could have.  The treatments now have changed healthcare dramatically.  I’m so grateful that Kirsty made the effort to come and find me.  That we had had our DNA checked and then followed our plan through. It had seemed drastic and scary at the time, but I’m so glad that we did it.

    Some challenges and experiences are worth undertaking and this certainly was one.

     

    Written for A story a day for Pancreatic Cancer UK

    Here is my fundraising page if you would like to donate.  Any size donation is appreciated.

     

    I hope you have enjoyed these stories.  Thirty stories in thirty days has been a huge undertaking.  I now hope to take a break and maybe sometime soon get an early night.

    Wouldn’t it be nice if the above story was true.  We lose our loved ones, often to horrible painful illnesses, we all want to have them with us longer.  One day hopefully there will be treatments, early diagnosis and cures.  Until then we al have to keep on fighting!

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