Does anyone else feel like all their hair might suddenly fall out? or just the feeling of giving up and going back to your warm comfortable duvet?  A need to shut out the world and find you, find some inner peace, be able to truly relax.  I am not sure when I last really relaxed, life’s stresses feel continuous and we seem to face one problem straight after another. This year I had the problems with the car tyre, unplanned expense and the children just being them.  I would love my children to behave, when will that happen?

This morning we have taken daddy to work then visited Morrisons on the way back.  My 7 year old wanted to carry the basket. We needed bread and milk, I put the milk in the basket and instead of letting me hold it he then started racing up and down the supermarket like a dog, on his hands and feet.  My daughter found this very funny, I didn’t but despite my shouting, they would not stop.  At the self- checkout, they kept climbing on the conveyor belt and then racing around. Another shopper told them to stop and listen to their mum.  They ignored him and carried on.  Is this just me?

Are anyone else’s children as bad?  As we walked past the dry cleaners they insisted on ringing the bell, the poor lady was trying to work.  Putting the children in the car my son then starts shouting that my daughter has taken sweets.  Just a bit late once we have left the shop, I’m sure they can not be returned to stock.   So rather then tears and an argument and walking back in the shop I left it. I told her that mummy could go to prison, this did not phase her.  Once home my son knocked them out of her hand and they went all over the path.  I told her that it served her right for taking them but my son should not have knocked her.  How cruel can big brothers be?

At this moment they are climbing in the front room and I have just pulled my daughter off the piano.  They will not just sit nicely, however, they are at least playing together.

So how was our Christmas?  Christmas day was lovely, it was just us and despite the trainset over the front room and both mummy and daddy eating too much, whilst the kids refused dinner, it was a lovely day.  I love days where I can just stay in my pyjamas and not worry about going anywhere. In my mind, Christmas day is one of them.  A day with close family especially when the children are small and just want to play with their new toys.

We had Grandma here on boxing day so I had to get dressed and was not able to just relax.  I’m not a big fan of entertaining,  I’m not good at being entertained either. I get very stressed and very anxious.  Is anyone else here like me? The nerves start to go as soon as the invite is made.  For me, heaven is staying at home with my family, just us, I can be me.  Daddy doesn’t care that I’m still in my pyjamas or whether my hair is greasy and messy.  Staying at home there is no need to put on a front for the world.   Next year I have been told we are not having Christmas at home, I am already worrying about it.

So just before Christmas my blog became self-hosted, I have had a few issues but the lovely man at Lyrical Host has been fantastic.  He even helped me Christmas day and Boxing day.  I also made the decision to try and monetise it, so I have now joined the Amazon associate affiliate scheme.  I have so much to learn if this blog is going to make some money, even a little profit would be nice.

Yesterday after a conversation on Facebook I decided to change my Twitter username and then I regretted it.  I opened my Twitter account in 2010 as EyeOfMazz because I am a big fan of Jackie Chan. He is EyeOfJackieChan, hence a lot of his fans on Twitter have EyeOf in their username.  I changed my name, then I opened another account.  Then Twitter blocked the second account and I unblocked it.

Lying in bed last night, I thought what have I done? I want my old name back. So then went back on to the laptop and deactivated the second account.  Then tried to change my username back.  Twitter would not allow it, saying it is not available.  I then logged back into the second account and changed the username there. I was surprised it let me as it had been deactivated.  Then back into the first account and it still says not available. So my Twitter username is now EyeofMazz, with a small o.

I am guessing that Twitter have suspended the EyeOfMazz username. When contacting Twitter I just get a computer. Yes, I got myself in quite a tangle here.  Blame sentimentality and not being able to let go, but it has frustrated me, nothing in this life seems to be straightforward.  If anyone has an easy answer on how to fix this please do let me know.

Today my 7 year old has thankyou letters to write to family and I still need to build an elf with my 5 year old.  I caught her yesterday climbing in our bedroom taking jewellery.  Yes a common theme of taking, I really hope that she does grow out of it.

This evening we have to go to my uncle’s for dinner and the anxiety has already started. The children are now demanding my attention.  I keep telling myself that I need to enjoy every minute with them as they are not small for long, this is as my 5 year old is now sat on my lap reaching for the keyboard and whining.

Hope you are all having a good day and have had a lovely Christmas.  This is my last day off as back to work on Monday. The Christmas holidays have gone to fast. Anyway, I am now going to go as both children are demanding food and continue with my job of being mum.

For another Christmas post see, https://justmuddlingthroughlife.co.uk/2018/12/04/christmas-stresses-anyone-stressed/